STOP IT!!

Horror Movies...

wooo..Totally not in my favourate list!What should I comment myself is I am not brave enough to watch those movies which contain much scary scenes..Dont be weird if a boy age like me still on scare with such movies,or maybe I should says Whats fucking wrong if  I dont dare to?

Besides,I would like to please my friends,or whoever got my e-mail address..Dont ever send mails containing scary or pervert pictures,stories or whatever lah!Let me live in peace please...Because I wont check my inbox but I will delete all unread mails in a certain time..so dont waste your time to mark my name and forward to me..

Because your behaviour will made me insomnia for at least 3-4 days which my mind will keep reminding me those freaking stupid scenes..So please~

But currently I going to watch Jennifer's Body perhaps..=.=''

*生存之道*

现在的世界..悲哀啊...

好一句弱肉强食..想要当好人 是一个自杀的行为..

WHY??

因为好人就是好欺负就够了..

攀龙附凤 狐假虎威 变本加厉 忘恩负义!!

如果你想要在现在的社会立足,

你的身体里多多少少一定要有这些'优点'..

WHY??

因为人类是不知足的!有了就要更好,看不惯别人的就不择手段..

电视里教的人生大道理:坚持努力就会有结果..这些当然是对的!

因为这些要用于努力的为非作歹就会一人之上,万人之下的美满结局!

坚持自己的决定要更上一层楼 从坏变奸..

而如果你想打败这些所谓的奸人,很幸运的

你有一个再好不过的办法,就是要比他们还贱!

功力只有和他们平等也不错

至少拼个 你死我活 两败俱伤 的局面 

但是,永远都是 渔翁得利...

 WHY??

因为他们比你奸!!

爱情里没有永远,只有最后..

你还记得吗?
你笑着对我说要陪我走到永远..
但是,原来我们累积的永远只是一个谎言..
你的冷漠,我的心
告诉了我你已不再爱我..


只怪我不该只懂得配合你的剧本,拉扯后得到的全都只是意外...
而我却独自收拾剩下的残壳,一个人从返寂寞..
你不知道,我要的根本并不多..也不想看你那么累..
所以你选择了努力的躲开所有的地带...你不是故意的..


你的爱也这样飞了..我找不回来了..
泪掉了..
别怪我没用..它只是一种提醒..
提醒我还爱你,提醒自己这次真的伤了,它该流了..
但是别怕,寂寞就快取代你的位子了..


只是你带给我认识的幸福,也因为你..我和它变得陌生了...


也好,你让我明白了..幸福是不能随便认识的..

I wanna leave...

I scared..I worried..I messed.. I know there is nothing can cure me except time..
But time came late while I fall in the deepest trap that you made,and wrapped me..
and I thought whatever I done to you could barely lend me a place in your heart..
But not..and now you're gone and I dont know how to follow..

Now I decided to live alone for you..alone in darkness..alone in all the ways..
Maybe not,maybe only Im brave enough to face the rest of our promised by myself..
but hard to be sure,when the silent is illuminated,understand that only left lonely beside me..

I want to hide..I want to run..I want to fly..I want to leave..
as faster as I can..To another place..To escape from your vision..To a place that you never found me..
All across until there,I choose lonely together with me..only lonely understand me the well..only lonely knows how much I love you..and only lonely willing to love me forever..

Im still floating..floating in your world..
But now,可是我还爱你..I love You

Louder louder,we are running for our lives..Our own lives..
Recently,I feels alots of panic,upset..I am just surrouding by these suck ever feelings..

谁将是我的眼?

走在人海里,当我遇到盲人的时候我有着许多的感触..

上帝给了他们来到这个世界的机会,却跟他们开了看不见的玩笑..

感觉得到太阳的温度,却看不到阳光..

感觉得到寒冷的天气,却看不到雪花..

无论你怎么的清楚告诉他们,他永远不清楚周围的事物..

站在镜子面前他怎么摸,他永远不清楚自己看什么样子..

有目标,有希望...但是因为没方向所以才一直原地不动..

他们都要戴着黑色的眼镜,隔着一层像墨一样的视觉过着没有色彩的日子..

他们祈祷着祈祷着,只希望下一次从梦里醒来时..眼前的视觉是不一样的东西,哪怕只有几秒钟..

他们祈祷着祈祷着,希望当下一次走在马路上时..可以放开对所有人的依靠,哪怕只越过那条街..

但是他们却让我拥有无比的羡慕!为什么?

因为他们看不见这个世界坏的一面..

他们看不见丑陋,冷酷,无情,现实....甚至是爱情..

而我..虽然拥有一双看得见的眼睛..但是我仍然处于灰色地带..

如果真的有那么一天,我的双眼看不见了..我的爱,你会牵着我的手,陪我等天亮吗??

...

*2009.9.23 i lost my 4th uncle who had a very serious kidney disease..Among all my father's siblings,he is the one who really trust in Lord and he really love GOD..but he still cant fight the fate when the disease and death are go on him!Its really made me upset and till today I still cant really accept the fact why he will got such disease since he never touch on Cigarette and alcohol!!

Even my relationship with uncle was not that close,but once i flashed back of many things like my granny,she had lost a great son..my dad and other uncles and aunties,they lost their brother who live with them for almost half of the live..and his family members..A several complicated feels was fully inside my body..

On 24th,the funeral procession day..Once and once i told myself not to cry but its seem to be so hard when the music was played and the relative were pray..i noticed my cousins who stand beside me kept on wipe his tears and even my dad and other uncle who never watch them of this kind of upset squating on the stair..*

Times running really quick,feeling like this matter just two days ago..Many time,i often ask to GOD why I needs to face so much difficulties in my life why dont gave me a simple and peaceful life.. If I really do means likes this I such like a dastard who only know and choose the ways to escapes when the trouble is come..But i dont want to admit how suck and worse i am..But if theres not that much of obsession in life,maybe I wont be that mess and awful?who knows...

My exam today

My God..i did not really well in my exam..wishes at least have a pass please!!!
Tomorrow back bintulu no more brunei /.\