五月 - 温馨 - 给妈妈的节

我要没收您脸上的皱纹， 
那些你对我的关心与付出， 
因那本来就不该属于你的。 

我要磨平你手上的粗糙， 
那些你对我的照顾与教诲， 
因那本来就不该属于你的。 

我要染黑你头上的白发， 
那些你对我的思念与逞强， 
因那本来就不该属于你的。 

我摘下一朵康乃馨，带着青春的花瓣， 
在这五月里，为你芬芳。 
因那本来就 

属于你的。


摘自 - 刘荣易

1）*幼稚园篇*

主题,先暂时还不知道要放什么。就纯粹想写很多很多很多的东西...

可能在结束的后面会有灵感..

原来,看着别人小时候的照片。也会勾起自己那段回忆...

还记得。

幼稚园的时候，我只是个单纯无知的小孩..还记得那时候是不需要穿制服。到了幼稚园，爸爸还没把车开走,我已经哭了。看看周围的同学哭个不停,眼泪更是难以控制。功课一定准时交，课本一定带。可能就是因为这样,那时候的成绩总是能让我向爸妈要求些什么.. 哪怕只是颗不值几毛钱的棒棒糖..

下课趁等待着爸爸来接我的期间，非要和朋友在游乐场上玩得满头大汗满 身是泥才甘愿。

那时候没想到跌倒的痛,没想到妈妈洗衣很辛苦。

那时候我才5岁。

只是那时候的我..好像已经在我身上找不到了。而,我也只是纯粹的想念着..回味着..单纯和无知。

To Myself.

''Hey darling, 4 days till the day''

''LOL,you coming 21 soon ah''

''We are so look forward your party!''

...

21岁啊21岁..

原来在我还没有准备好的情况下你已经来了..

记得18-19的时候,我有多么的希望这一天快点来。

那时的我曾经以为 - 21岁了 我可以交随心所欲的交女朋友

那时的我曾经以为 - 21岁了 我可以跟阿爸讨金钥匙 就是 ‘自由’

那时的我曾经以为..就是很多以为

21岁,长大了思想真的跟以前很不同

如果我真的有了女朋友.. 我们真的会一路到最后在画上美满的句点吗?

‘自由’- 出来工作了那么久也算有了自由.. 但是怎么我开始想家。

‘随心所欲’ - 不想被老爸管了, 但是往往到后面受委屈了还是打电话回家向老爸诉苦。

21岁,长大了吗?

我以前的梦想们。一个个渐渐的远离我了..但是真的不是我放弃  不是我不上进  现实总不如我想的那般美妙。

21岁以后的我，会不会像20年前那样缺少一份勇气与自信所以一直都只会想要站在原地，等待别人主动给我想要的。

21岁以后的我，会不会还是一样 在亲情/友情/爱情 上让对方等待?

21岁以后的我，在工作上是不是还是会让老板担心?

21岁

自己最迷茫的年龄

21岁

梦想开始的年龄

21岁

一种生活的结束

21岁

另一种生活的开始。

给5天后的我加油!相信  未来会好的

生日快乐*

A night like this.

Nothing much recently.

Just a night without stars above the sky.

Just a boring night brought me to blogging here

Just a lonely night caused me want to talk to someone

Just a indecisive night makes me feel like I'm not smart

Just a night with all these feelings. They are enough to let me down

你最近好吗? A simple question with alot complicated feels.

 You replied ''还是一样'' A simple answer but I still feels so sorry to you.

Because we both know what actually the question and the answer representing and exactly how each other feel.

Just a night like this and I'm missing you 

After since.

It's been a while I did'nt logged in my blogger and update something about myself. Well actually I did I think?It just sometimes I wanted to write something but I just cant get the grammar correct/ words to describe what am I feeling at the time and so I just let the post drafted there.

Today is a boring day. Well if you are good enough  in history, it's Brunei National Day. And I got a one day holiday.Holiday uh? Rotting in the house facing my lappy and napped are what I did so far. Nearly 9 months I have working in this country.Life here is good, I earns my own and I uses my own.Maybe sometimes I spent more than I earned but I guess thats life.I met a bunch of mates here and they're just friendly and nice.Sometimes misunderstanding occurred between me and anyone of them.I'd just say I am not the kind of person who smart enough to express whats wrong with me to people surrounding me.All I know is just show my face according to my mind and emotion.I do understand its annoying everytime we hanged out but then I showed up emo face and ended up the gathering in not happy condition.BUT trust me that I love to hang out with you guys.Oh Yeah,and also today is my sister Elaine Loi 19th birthday.Kor at here again wishes you have a wonderful day and you know I <3 You.

I am a higher and also can be a very very down dropper sometimes.I hate the feeling of waiting.No matter its forwarding a good situation or bad side.Waiting for the party started,waiting for the injuries being healed,and recently I got the feeling of waiting someone come back to you.This will be so ridiculous if the opposite never promised anything but you waiting for him/her for nothing here;or maybe what you waiting is a chance which you will not seeing any future hopes between you and him/her.After a big slapped on my face and I realized that is a shit,then I trying so hard to let it go.But sometimes thing did not work as your wished.Starred at the pictures on the wall and I will ask myself : are you doing fine over there so far from me? So I dislike during the time to forget someone.Actually its like you are waiting someone to step out from your world.So again,Its WAITING.

现在我很幸福 is in the headset since just now.Maybe till the time we meet again, I able to tell you that : I'm doing good as what you wished before you leaved.If leaving is what you decided,please you gotta take care yourself always.Find someone that he is deserved to own your heart.Find someone who willing to love you more than you love her. And I will do the same thing too :)

也许分开是为了下次的再见 is currently my favourite quote to motivated myself when someone is leaving so far from me.

以为你还在

钢琴上的键弹不出明天 
一双手要怎样
要怎样才能够撑住一片天
明天已经很遥远
一个人要怎样
要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前
*我以为你还在
我还等着你回来
 一起看海拥抱海的澎湃 
数到三还不来 
回忆不释怀
我在等待 
可是你怎么都不会回来

I'll be , I wanna do..

I'll be your dream, 

I'll be your wish

I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, 

I'll be your love be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do

I will be strong 

I will be faithful 'cause

I'm counting on
A new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

  And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers. In lonely hours. The tears devour you.

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
until the sky falls down on me.